Monday, August 31, 2015


I know things have been bright and cheery (for the most part) over here lately, but honestly this summer has been a doozy. I mentioned a few times that at the beginning of July I found out I had to get tons of dental work done. Tons. So, we got it all done. Fillings, Cleanings, a bridge.. it was a lot. I had about an appointment a week, sometimes two, for a little over a month.

Of course, sensitivity happens with fillings. It just does, but my mouth has been super sensitive for the past month and a half and my jaws have ached more than ever in life. Luckily the jaw part is starting to get better. Now I also have wisdom teeth coming in, but my mouth just isn't happy.

I've gone to get my bite adjusted three times to see if the discomfort will go away, it doesn't. I've gone to get second opinions and I'm told everything looks fine. I've used sensitive toothpaste. I've tried changing how I close my mouth. I've tried essential oils. I've avoided foods that weren't room temperature. It's been a rough month.

This weekend was probably the worst because the stress of all of that just unleashed. I'm panicked thinking there's something wrong with my teeth and I'm angry that nobody can figure out why on earth it all just feels so wrong. I never had pain before going to get my teeth fixed, and that just frustrates me so much (although I know I needed the work done...)

So while I was driving home, overthinking all of this as I often do... and stressed because school is starting... and angry because this year is my student teaching year and I want to be so excited for that but I can't because I'm so concerned about my mouth and don't have time to go back to the dentist that's two hours away... this song came on.

I've heard this song a lot, but for some reason (probably all the stress) tonight it just hit me like a ton of bricks and I bawled my eyes out driving down the road. I don't know what's going on in life, at all, but I know that I'll be okay. Worst case scenario, without teeth, but still okay.
And I know that there are much bigger problems in the world, and probably in the lives of the 2.5 people who read my tiny little blog, and I hope that you know that you'll be okay too.

Friday, August 28, 2015

Ask Your S/O...

I saw these questions on a friend's Facebook status and thought it would be so cute to do! The idea is that you ask your boyfriend/husband/anyone I guess really these twenty two questions with no prompting or explanation and see what they say! I brought these questions up while Facetiming Ry the other day and his answers are below. My words are in burgundy. Try it! Have fun!

1. What is something I always say to you?
I love you

2. What makes me happy?
Me. Sunflowers. Jesus.

3. What makes me sad?
Me going to Hawaii. I can just say me to every question

4. How do I make you laugh?
By... tickling me. This never happens...?

5. What was I like as a child?
Matilda. When I was little I really did look kinda like Matilda...

6. How old am I?

7. How tall am I?

8. What is my favorite thing to do?
Sing, just kidding, go to the barn and ride horses.

9. What do I do when you're not around?
Ride horses and be sad This makes me sound so boring and lame...

10. If I become famous, what will it be for?
Being a model. Ha...

11. What am I really good at?

12. What am I not very good at?

13. What do I do for a job?
I took this one out because he listed the negatives of my job, and I don't want those on the blog :)

14. What is my favorite food?
SPAM... just kidding, pasta No, think seven year old boy at a baseball game... Not hot dogs, ew what no... you have to change your favorite food. Your favorite food can't be hot dogs, who's favorite food is hot dogs?

15. What makes you proud of me?
That you're everything I've ever wanted. I guess that's not really answering the question. Because you're kind, sweet, funny, caring, lovable, you are considerate, passionate, perfect, and you do and say the right things

16. If I was a character who would I be?
You are a character. Matilda.

17. What do we do together?
We watch Friends together and take naps

18. How are we the same?
We both love each other so much.

19. How are we different?
You like to drive gas guzzlers and you like horses

20. How do you know I love you?
Because I know, and you tell me like 500 times a day

21. What do I like most about you?
Nothing. This is a lie...

22. Where is my favorite place to go?
Hawaii, and in the future Japan. What?

Overall, this was really cute and I really recommend it! We had fun with it!

Thursday, August 27, 2015

Things To Do When Your Boyfriend Is Across The Ocean...

Sorry that title was so long, shortening it to (TTDWYBIATO) didn't seem like it would help much.

This summer has been a rough one (thankful it's almost over- isn't that sad?) I  had really long days, left my last summer job that I loved for a new one that I didn't  connect with as much, spent a lot of time away from Ry when he was here, had a lot of dental work... the list goes on. 

Anyway, now that I've moved back to my school house to start student teaching (yay!) Ryan has left to go 'home home' aka Hawaii... lucky duck. So, I've had even more free time than usual and I'm trying to figure out what to do with all of that extra time.

Introducing, things to do when your boyfriend is across the ocean (or somewhere else that's really far away) 

1. Run/exercise
I'm so determined to run while Ryan's gone. Not only because I want to be in shape l, but because I literally have no excuse not to. And when he comes back I'll already have healthy habits started for the year. 

2. Meal prep
Nothing crazy, just making leftovers and freezing for later. 

3. Spend time with friends, or make new ones!
Since we're all back to student teach, I'll get to spend time with my roommates uninterrupted and connect with people at my school that I might not have met before. 

4. Do something you've always wanted to!
Watch a new tv series, go skydiving, whatever you want!

5. Countdown the days. 
Just something I do... It makes the time go by faster for me. 

6. Send letters and gifts!
Nothing elaborate because hey, college student, but a note from home and a little gift to know you're still over here, thinking about them. 

7. Clean. 
Yep. I said clean. 

What do you do when your loved ones are away? Share some ideas, I'm begging you.

Tuesday, August 25, 2015

If In Doubt, Pin It Out

I love the things that I blog about (faith, life, love, food, fitness, and teaching) but sometimes I've just gotta talk about Pinterest. I've done this a few times before, here and here.

So, without further ado... here's what's been Pinteresting to me lately...

For The Home...

I love this dark wood bed, and I love the simple wedding canvases above it. Definitely a goal for my future home someday. I love how they're so subtle, but still make such a statement. I love wedding photos.

For The Closet...

I love this dress and I want this dress. I love comfortable tee dresses, and I love the stripes on this one and just everything about it. Honestly, if anyone knows where this is... help a girl out.

For The Kitchen...

Pulled pork is one of my most favorite foods and I will be trying this recipe out, just you wait and see.

For The Wedding (I'm not planning...)

Love the dark wood tables, the crate centerpieces, and the delicate flowers.

Love the Bible verse wood signs down the aisle.

For The Future Marriage

I think this is such a cute idea to keep track of all of the places you've visited as a couple.

What have you been pinning lately?

Monday, August 24, 2015

God Is My Planner

A few weeks ago when I was at my school house for the day I walked to meet Ry for lunch. While I was walking I heard construction a few streets over and I started really thinking about that house. I wondered who would live there and when their house would be done. I wondered what it looked like and how they'd decorate it. I wondered what the plan was for that house.

I started thinking about all of the things that I don't understand about this life, and all of the things I'm unaware of that are going on all around me that ultimately will affect my life. Three years ago I would've never predicted that the opportunity to be an RA would present itself to me and help me through college, that I'd be in such a great relationship, or that I'd be this close to finishing my college education. So, of course there's no way for me to predict where I'll be another three years from now.

Proverbs 16:9 says "The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps." We think we're the ones in control of our lives (believe me, I like to be in control...) but we're really not. God is our planner, and he's guiding us the entire time.

All of these things and all of the things to come, I believe, are pre-orchestrated by God. And then my thoughts went back to that house. What if that house was for me? I wouldn't know? But if it was, and somewhere I believe that God has a plan for where I'm to eventually live, He's working on it. What about my future job? He's working on my future classroom so that when I'm ready and it's the right time, that job will be available for me. He's chosen the students that will be in my classroom, the things that they will learn, and the ways that I will connect with them.

And that's just so amazing to me, it's so incredible that I can live my life day to day and not notice all of these amazing things that are going on around me all the time. Even when I'm not directly recognizing a blessing coming my way, there is always a blessing. Always.

Proverbs 3:5 & 6 says "Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths." God has my future already planned and I just have to trust that He knows the best way for it to unfold for me.

This post has been linked up with Naomi from What Joy of Mine for Mondays Musings and Kelly from A Field of Wild Flowers for the Small Wonder Link Up.

Friday, August 21, 2015

Travel Bug

Today I'll be working on tons of finishing touches for my best friend's wedding (tomorrow, guys... it's TOMORROW!) And even though when this post is published my whole mind is probably going to be full of wedding thoughts, right now I'm just thinking about traveling.

I'm usually a home-body, I love being home and relaxing and if I do travel to anywhere it's not far away. Until last spring break, the farthest I'd been was one state away... and then I went to Hawaii and now I want to go everywhere. Pinterest doesn't help this, there are beautiful destination shots everywhere you look.

Eventually I'd love to travel outside of the US, but at this point there's so much of the US I haven't seen (particularly the east coast...) that I want to start there first. So, I've listed four destinations that have appealed to me throughout my random searching.

Have you been here? Do you know what makes it so so great other than being beautiful in the pictures? Let me know! But don't get me too excited, I have tuition to pay for before travel.

1. Charleston, South Carolina

I don't know what it is, but I really want to visit South Carolina. It just seems like a relaxed, beachy place to go. Also, this pineapple fountain is adorable and I want to see it in real life.

2.  Cape Cod, Massachusetts

Cape Cod because it's coastal and looks cozy

3. Monterey Bay, California

If you're onto this whole coastal thing, you're right. I just want to go somewhere relaxed in the mountains with ocean views and a fireplace.

4. Catalina Island

This appeals to me because it's an island, still on the west coast, and it's beautiful!

Thursday, August 20, 2015

Leibster Award

I was nominated by Liz @ Sundays with Sophie for the Liebster award!

Acknowledge the blog who nominated you (Hi, Liz & Sophie!)

Look for an award image that you like, and post it on your blog
Answer the 11 questions asked by the person/blog who nominated you
Nominate 11 blogs
Let the bloggers know you nominated them
Give them 11 questions to answer


My answers to Liz's questions...

What's your favorite candy bar?
Anything chocolate is something I'll eat.
What's your least favorite chore?
Taking out a gross bag of trash. No thank you.
What would you say is your best quality?
I have a really strong work ethic and I'm determined to meet my goals. 
What's a secret talent that you have that no one knows about (but now the world will after you post this)?
I can sing pretty well. I can also play the trumpet thanks to high school band..
Favorite kind of date?
Making dinner, watching friends. 
What is your guilty pleasure TV show (that one you don't want anyone to know you watch)
Switched at Birth. So good!!
What was your worst date?
Went to a movie I had no interest in. It was so boring I fell asleep. 
Your favorite hairstyle you love to wear?
Just down. I'm simple!
Whats your LBD look like? (little black dress)
This is probably going to ruin my rep forever, but I haven't found one yet!
Place you'd love to visit?
Hawaii again, Italy, South Carolina.
What's your favorite room in your house?
Parents house - living room 
My house - my room

My Questions:

1. If you could be any superhero who would you be?
2. If you could use just a spoon or a fork to eat for the rest of your life, which would you choose?
3. How many freckles are on your left arm?
4. Last book you read? Why?
5. If you were an animal, which would you be? Would other people agree with this?
6. Chocolate or vanilla?
7. Most embarrassing moment you've had this week?
8. Biggest challenge you face while blogging?
9. Favorite movie, ever?
10. What are your plans for the day?
11. First thing that comes to mind when you hear the word potato?

Sorry for the randomness, but at least they're not the usual!

My nominated bloggers: 

Allison @ Because I Said So
Stephanie @ Coffee. Clothes. Repeat.
Katie @ Hot Tea & The Empty Seat
Hannah @ Just Bee
Stephanie @ Just A Little Bit Louder
Katelyn @ Simply Sunflour
Kaitlyn @ Little Goodies Blog

    Wednesday, August 19, 2015

    Who Are You Not To Be?

    Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
    Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
    It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
    We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
    Actually, who are you not to be?
    You are a child of God.
    Your playing small does not serve the world.
    There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
    We are all meant to shine, as children do.
    We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
    It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
    And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
    As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
    - Marianne Williamson, A Return To Love.

    This. is my favorite quote in the entire world. When I was a senior in high school my basketball team was on the way to state, the first girls team from my school to ever make it that far, and my principal at the time (who is one of the people I respect the most in life for many reasons) handed me a folded up piece of paper and told me to read it out loud to everyone on the bus after we were on our way.

    I read the quote to my team, my coach noted that it was mentioned in a movie, and we continued on our way. But I held on to that piece of paper. It's followed me through three different school desks, and still sits on my desk today. That same piece of paper, fold marks and all.

    I think it means so much to me because it was handed to me by someone I admired, on the way to an important event in my life, it references God, and it just resonates with me.

    Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
    Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
    It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.

    To me, this means that my fears don't come from not being good enough, they come from being good enough but not acting on my God given talents and abilities and settling for something far less than what I'm capable of. I (we) fear putting ourselves out there and showing what we can do when staying in the shadows and being a fly on the wall is so much more comfortable.

    We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
    Actually, who are you not to be?
    You are a child of God.

    We (I) convince ourselves so often that we're not as good as the person across the street, or the other girl with the popular blog, or the teacher the next classroom over. But we have gifts they don't, and we have skills they don't, and even that person isn't perfect. We are all children of God, we are all capable and beautiful and wonderful and we should shine!

    Your playing small does not serve the world.
    There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
    We are all meant to shine, as children do.

    I want to serve the world, and if I'm not putting myself out there and trying to serve the world, but hiding, I'm not serving. I won't grow, and neither will anyone else if I'm constantly holding myself back and not showing my gifts to help and serve others so that they don't feel insecure. We can use those gifts and talents and abilities to lift those people up! Just as kids don't worry about what they say and spew honesty (kindly...) or showing their happiness through their constant joy, we shouldn't either.

    We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
    It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
    And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
    As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

    God is in all of us, and we should show that through our words and our actions. We are all full of God's love. And as we show that happiness and that joy and what He's given us, we inspire those around us to do the same. As we let go of our insecurities and our doubts and everything else that's holding us back, others might do the same.

    What's your favorite quote? What touches your heart when you hear it?

    Tuesday, August 18, 2015

    5 Coffee Shop Faves in My Mug

    Anyone who knows me knows that I love coffee shops. And baking. And really a lot of things I guess. But especially coffee shops. One of my dreams is to own an organic/natural bakery/coffee shop with scripture printed mugs and wall art with cozy spaces for people to host Bible studies.

    So, until I open a real bakery coffee shop and invite all of you there, I'm just going to share my coffee shop drink faves. Try them if you haven't, share what your favorites are!

    1. Hot White Mocha with Vanilla (and sometimes caramel)

    Simple, but oh so good. My aunt actually got me hooked on these and they're the only coffee drink I'll drink hot, everything else is blended. Even in the rain. But not these. So so good.

    2. Black and White Mocha

    Also simple, but it's a new spin on an old favorite. Or an old spin on a new favorite, whatever floats your goat.

    3. Peach Arnold Palmers

    If I'm not drinking coffee, I'm drinking this. Half black tea, half lemonade, with some added peach.

    4. Lemonade with Real Fruit

    Ask your barista if they have real fruit behind the counter! Not all do, but some! And if they're willing and able, putting real fruit instead of syruped fruit in your drinks is the way to go!

    5. Blended Hot Chocolate

    I got hooked on these with my best friend in high school. I love hot chocolate in the winter time, and having that taste in a cooled down version during the summer is the best. Try it!

    What's in your mug?

    Monday, August 17, 2015

    When Life Hands You Zucchini...

    I don't know why I've been on such a baking kick lately, but I have. And I regret nothing. My mom taught me from early on that if you're going to make something at home it should be with the best most natural ingredients you can find, and that's what I do. So how bad can baked goods be if they're whole wheat, right? Right.
    Our neighbor brought down a giant ol' zucchini on my day off and since I had nothing else to do except catch up on the blog and play with kittens... I baked. Zucchini bread is my go-to zucchini food. And in the country in the summer if you don't already have tons of zucchini in your garden (if you have a garden) then the neighbors are bringing the stuff by in droves...
    So, we'll make zucchini bread today and be glad.
    My zucchini bread recipe that's always changing. Always.
    3 cups all whole wheat purpose flour
    1 tsp baking soda
    1 tsp aluminum-free baking powder
    3 tsp organic cinnamon
    1/2 cup applesauce, OR 2 tablespoons chia seeds & 6 tablespoons water, OR 2 eggs.
    2 sticks of butter
    2 1/4 cups organic cane sugar.
    3 tsp vanilla extract
    2 cups grated fresh zucchini.

    Step One.

    Preheat your oven to 325 and then butter & flour your bread pans, and your counter, and your hands, and your clothes... and basically anything else that's nearby because this step is always the messiest.


    Step Two.

    Combine flour, salt, baking powder, baking soda and cinnamon in a bowl.

    Step Three.

    No pictures for this because that part of the kitchen isn't clear enough... beat applesauce OR chia mix OR eggs with butter vanilla and sugar. Add flour mixture slowly. Grate 2 cups of zucchini and stir in.

    Step Four.

    Put into pans.

    Step Five.

    Put pans into preheated oven, pace and wait for 40-60 minutes or until fork poked in the middle of that deliciousness comes out clean.

    Step Six.

    Cool in pan for 20 minutes and then eat as much as you can before anyone else gets home. Or wait and share, it's up to you.

    Happy Monday!

    Friday, August 14, 2015

    Five (or six...) on Friday! | Kitten Edition


    On June 30th, I was packing up my truck to bring things to my school house and my dad was hooking up his trailer to load my furniture when he found a brand newborn baby kitten under the toolbox in his truck. Not the right time, momma kitty. So, we moved the kitten and the momma to a kennel so we could safely load everything.
    When I got back from my first round of moving the momma and her kitten were nowhere to be found. My dad, who has cat whispering skills or something I tell ya, found them under our back porch one morning and I was so excited. This little orange one was so funny to me, because momma is more of a tabby colored cat and all of the other kittens were similar in color, but not Cheetoh here...
    The next day, the kittens had moved again. I searched forever and ever (probably two days...) and couldn't find them. But, of course, my dad walked outside and found them in some brush after thirty minutes... They were about eight days at this point, still no open eyes. At this point we were able to clearly see we had two dark grey tabby-types, two light-gray and white tabby-types, one all gray (below), and Cheetoh. 

    After the kittens were eight or ten days old momma cat took them into hiding again. We looked forever (even dad couldn't find them) until one day we came home and this little guy was sitting on our front porch. We were expecting them to be wild since they hadn't been handled by us in so long, but at four weeks this little one was sweet as can be.

    I looked around some more that night and found the other five kittens under the front steps. Some of them hissed while we picked them up, but they never tried to scratch or anything which was really surprising. Anyway, they were all doing well and have stayed close by for the past two weeks.

     Momma cat has her paws full, that's for sure. So, at six weeks it's time for the kittens to make their Happy Chalkboard debut. At least before they go hide again...

     This spunky little thing is my mom's adult cat, MissMe (yes, like the jeans...) she goes by anything that starts with M though. She also thinks she's the co-momma to the kittens, and so that's interesting. But she's not a kitten, so let's get to them...

    Kitten #1: Light Tabby. Male. "Goopy"

    Ignore my work polo, this little goon is the only cat besides Cheetoh that I routinely call the same thing: Goopy. Not the prettiest name, but for the last two weeks I consistently could pick out this kitten because his poor little eyes are always runny and we have to clean them. So sad. He doesn't seem to mind though...
    Silly goopy-eyed kitten... half of the kittens have bobbed tails, and Goopy is one of them!

    Kitten #2: Dark Tabby. Female. "Lil"

    Every time I say Lil I think of "Phil & Lil" from Rugrats, but she's a girl and she has a bobbed tail... it just fit! She's also a scaredy cat (pun intended) and hides in the wood pile way more than the others.

    Kitten #3: Dark Tabby. Female.

    We don't call this one anything yet, she's cute though! Also currently located in my hoodie pocket at the time of this post...just sleeping. Being a kitten is a rough job.

    Kitten #4:  Orange. Male. "Cheetoh"

    Cheetoh is always so calm, and he's a chunk. I feel like every cat I own always likes to sit like this, and Cheetoh was game to recline for a while. He's super spunky and I secretly think he'll be the one we keep... we'll see though. 

    Kitten #5: Light Tabby. Male. "Not Goopy"

    If Goopy wasn't goopy I have no idea how we'd tell these two apart... but now that I think of it I'm pretty sure Goopy has a bobbed tail, so there ya go. This little guy was the first kitten we found on our front porch. Love his little white paws.

    Kitten #6. Gray. Male. "Goose"

    This little guy is hilarious. He was the first kitten to hiss at me, and hissed at me the longest. I'm not sure why, but now he's a sweetie. Such a chunk too. He's twice as big as any of the other kittens, except Cheetoh... Cheetoh's also a chunk...
    So that's everybody! Momma's got her paws full, even with Miss' "help". I'm sad the kittens (and I, for school) will be off to new homes in just a few short weeks... luckily we've got lots of homes wanting to take them in.
    Which one would you keep if you were me? And no, all of them can't be an option... not ready to be a cat lady at 22...
    Happy Friday!